You cry and cry and cry more... it doesn't help then you go all quiet, tired and sick of letting things out and start to suck things up inside and dwell in it silently..... you want to get cut off of the world and be yourself.... you don't want any company or any shoulder as the tears are dry now....the next stage brings nothing but numbness.... you are senseless... eating food to run metabolism and to survive, breathing so you don't choke yourself to death and working to keep the brain active.....
Slowly-slowly, like a mercury rising up in titration you lose the last thread of hope.... and cling to a place which is nothing but a black-hole.... nothing but a void that you never were able to fill... the sun is gone for you, even when it shines bright on a red hot afternoon... rain is nothing but those dried up tears substituting and trickling down... cuts and burns are pleasures as they accidently let out the fire of sorrow bottled up inside... you can hear the heart cracking, the mind bursting, getting slow poisoned to an effect that you can feel every pulse, every blood every movement inside your body, people think you are going crazy or losing it but the truth is you lose "yourself".....you're surrendering...
The unsteady knees somehow manage to keep you standing while inside..... you limp like you're craving for water on an empty wide desert.... you creep, you freak out and you get sleepless nights...you bad-dream and look at the mirror to figure out.... you take a shower and you still don't feel fresh and rest and peace are words forgotten long back....
what do you do....?? The answer... is nothing but..... D.E.A.T.H..... seems easier than life...
and those who still live are STRONG.....REALLY STRONG....
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